Chasing Ghosts arrives July 24.
We changed this song more times than I can count. There are probably 22 different versions of it by now.
Some lyrics were rewritten, parts of the music became louder and the chorus grew into something alot bigger.
But the feeling underneath it never changed.
It is about watching everybody else find their place while you are still trying to understand where you belong.
The song begins with:
You can call me strange
I left home when I was only fifteen
I kept my bruises beneath my sleeves
Swore it didnt mean a damn thing
I left home at fifteen.
At the time, I acted like what happened didnt matter. Admitting it hurt would have meant admitting I needed help, so I hid things and tried to handle everything alone.
I told myself I was strong.
Really, I was scared.
Sometimes those two things can look exactly the same.
The verses feel personal and close, but the chorus opens into something much bigger.
Cause I’m still chasing ghosts down back roads
Still getting lost in who I’ve been
Everybody found a place to settle
I’m still wondering where I fit in
The chorus has this anthem feeling that makes you want to sing along, even when the words are hitting somewhere painful.
The ghosts are old versions of us. The lives we thought we would have and the places we believed we were supposed to belong.
Sometimes you chase those ghosts because you want answers.
Sometimes you just want to remember who you were before life taught you to become somebody else.
But the song isn't only sad.
Maybe I was built a little different
Maybe I just never learned to quit
Maybe your life didnt happen in the order everybody expected.
Maybe you spent years rebuilding parts of yourself that other people never had to lose. Maybe you are still trying to find your people, your place or even the person you used to be.
That doesnt mean you failed.
It might only mean your road looks different.
Chasing Ghosts doesnt end with every question answered. I’m still trying to remember the girl I used to be, while accepting I may never become that exact person again.
But I’m moving forward.
And sometimes moving forward without knowing exactly where you are going has to be enough.
Chasing Ghosts arrives July 24. You can pre-save the song by following the link below.
Kelsey Rodgers
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